Israel Song

I should probably explain the title... If you've never read Ezekiel 16, it's a story of God's seeking after Israel and their constant running away. It talks of Israel's beginnings and how God found her just after her birth, lying naked and deserted. It tells of His acts of love in covering her with His robe and raising her as His own. She doesn't stay for long, though, and she goes off prostituting herself to anyone who will have her. It's worse than prostituting, really, because she pays for men to misuse and take advantage of her. She chases after them,and they all laugh at her. God, though, cannot help but love her and wait and hope for her to reach the end of herself, so He can bring her back home. It's beautiful! Truly!

I cannot help but identify with that story. If you read my first post, you'll understand the reasons. How often I have chased after someone who would only take advantage of me. How often have I run away from the One who truly loves me to chase after those that would not love me.
About two years ago, I wrote a song called Israel's Song that told my story as the story of Ezekiel 16. It's a very real look at the darkness I was in and the questions I found myself asking. It's not a song that completely resolves itself in the end, as so many "Christian" songs do. It's not to say it doesn't end well, but it's not a "happily ever after" type ending. It would not be honest if it did. I still struggle with the same questions. "Can you really love someone like me?" "Can you really redeem me after all that I've done?"
When I was preparing to give my testimony several weeks ago for the college Bible study, my mother repeated something Beth Moore had said in one of her messages. "God does not redeem half-way!" If I asked God to redeem me, I'm redeemed. He doesn't do things half-way. He doesn't partially forgive. He forgives and casts the sin as far as the east is from the west. (For those that aren't geographically inclined... east and west never meet! If you're heading east, there is no point at which you will then be heading west.)
So, my questions and doubts, though they are unfounded, have already been answered. He can and DOES love someone like me, and He HAS redeemed me. So, the question I should be asking now is, "When am I going to start living as someone who is known and loved completely?"